Dont worry your bud will blossom well, just imagine it blooming and it will.
This for all those would be mommies who are pregnant and those who are undergoing infertility treatment.
Its just a brief phase of my life which was the most terrible as well as the most beautiful part of my life which I would love to share with you.
I underwent infertility treatment for almost 4 years it was terrible both mentally and physically I took my tablets and injections sincerely, but I failed to do one thing that was most important that was have a positive attitude, all through I kept fearing that I would not be able to bear a child (instead of hoping that the treatment would do me good and it would be successfull). It was the end of my 4 th year that my husband decided to end all treatment as by that time I had become a nervous wreck , and he kept telling me day and night that I would have a baby only if I wanted to have one desperately and the feeling should be so desperate that i should be able to imagine being with the baby almost hear it cry, it might sound crazy but thats what I did and you won't beleive it I did get pregnant in six months time . It wasnt easy , its never easy, specially to imagine that you will have a kid when you have almost a zoo ( from cysts ,fibroids, endometriosis ,blocked tube ,etc ) in your uterus and at a time when you have stopped treatment. I am not sure whether my earlier treatment had worked wonders late or whether it was one of the months which is suited for fertility but I do know it worked because of my positive attitude.
My joy knew no bounds when my pregnancy test was positive but it was shortlived because I started bleeding within an hour of the test I ran from doctor to doctor , they all suggested that I should let go of my baby and they assured me that I would get pregnant immidiately. But I desperately wanted to have him I thought God had given me one chance and I would not let go off so easily , I managed to convince one doctor to put me on injections (hormones steriods, whatever), but i'm not giving up on my child , My husband stood by me at all times. I had bleeding ,severe back pain and stomach pain through out my pregnancy , could only drink coconut water and soup throughtout my pregnancy (had severe vomiting and cough if I had anything else). I had reached a stage when I asked my doctor if she would take out my baby , so that we could take better care once it is outside and I was not sure if I would make it to the ninth month (well whatever we think only that happens) , and the during my seventh month I had complications and the baby was out.
Our misery did not stop there , I could not see the baby properly because I was suffering from severe pneumonia (the doctors could not diagonise it and I was treated for UTI to viral fever and the fever was always at 107 C) its difficult to breathe ,to think, to walk , to talk with pneumonia. As luck would have it my mother and my sister were sick at the same time so they could be there with me as often as they wanted too, and it was upto my poor husband again to take care of me and the baby, my boy got some infection so he had to have almost 4 to 5 injections per day , the doctors had no hopes for me and my son. But my husband never gave up hope , he along with the help of nurses took care of me and my son for almost a month (he was on leave) and finally the doctors diagonised the correct disease and we were out the hospital after a month , though my son had to keep going for injections to the hospital , it was better than being in it. Things were not very bright for him , I had to keep him warm throughout , we always had to keep the light on day and night , (he was only 1.25 kgs) but then positive attitude kept us going (call it whatever you want God's blessing or a positive mind ) and in 3 months time my son could stop his injections and he increased in weight and became one chubby child .
Now Manas is almost 4 years and we are glad we went through hell to have him, now we see heaven in his smiles his voice, his naughtiness.
So all you troubled would be mummies out there dont get worried or frustrated if I could have a kid, i'm sure despite the problems you all will have healthy kids too , but dont forget your attitude, don't forget to smile and dance your worries away.
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